If you thought you had to be perfect you can’t. You can’t do this yourself. We all share in pain. No one has a perfect life. You are called to cooperate with God’s grace.
When you experience struggle and pain in your life, please do not go to a rash judgement and assume God is mad at you or punishing you. God never gets tired of your or your prayers or your problems. Please include God and give him room to work in your life.
Don’t be alone. Whatever struggles we face pr pain we carry, we do better when we are with others. Whatever we face, we do better together.